Deb
Be good to yourself, gather family and friends close and spend time remembering all of the good, fun and unique things about Michelle. Do what she would have wanted you to do, it is the truest way to honor her. If she would have said go laugh, dance and sing at the top of your voice, get to it. If she would have wanted you to put your emotions into helping another, get busy. The loss of someone we love is painful. But for Michelle it's not, she's free, which after all she had been through is a blessing of comfort and peace.
Take care- Ann