I'm sure you certainly have everyone's best wishes directed to you and your family. Fear for something like this is nothing to be ashamed of and all I can offer is something that was passed on to me years ago. I don't know that it is truly from the source indicated but it doesn't matter...hopefully it helps you put it in perspective


Prayer

I asked God for strength, that I might achieve,
I was made weak, that I might learn humbly to obey.
I asked for health, that I might do greater things,
I was given infirmity that I might do better things.
I asked for riches, that I might be happy,
I was given poverty, that I might be wise.
I asked for power, that I might have the praise of men,
I was given weakness, that I might feel the need of God
I asked for all things, that I might enjoy life,
I was given life, that I might enjoy all things.
I got nothing that I asked for - but everything I had hoped for.
Almost despite myself, my unspoken prayers were answered.
I am among all men, most richly blessed.

By An Unknown Confederate Soldier